Weigh in

Gained a pound.

Friday

Lost 2lbs.

Breakfast was a tray of sushi rolls. Also a can of sugar free red bull.

Lunch was pasta, tomato sauce and salmon fillet.

Also had two hot cross buns, one with butter, a small cake thing. Second can of red bull.

Later I had another hot cross bun, I think. Dinner was roast beef with everything. Then I ate 8 coos. And a small buttons easter egg. I am on my 2nd glass of wine. I am practicing being maudlin as an art form today.

Weigh in

Well it’s hardly surprising, but I’ve put on 4lbs.

Some of that is probably water retention but still.

I’ve definitely been trying to sabotage myself this week. I succeeded. I don’t know why I do it. I ate a lot because I was in pain and things but it went beyond that. I was too close to reaching my goal.

I typed goat then. I’ll never reach my goat.

Weigh-in

3lbs!

Wheeee!

Considering the slip ups this week, that’s amazing! YAY!

I lost 9lbs total in February. I am 17st 2lbs now. If I have a ‘good’ week, I will make my first target next week!

WHEEE!

Weigh-in

4lbs!

Weigh-in

Lost 2lbs. I was a bit disappointed to be honest, but when I thought about it, I’ve only been back on track for four days, and last weekend was mighty lardy. So it’s great really. It’s in the right direction! 2lbs is a healthy amount to lose a week anyway. I just need to keep things up. I’m not going to do what I used to do and go all silly today and the weekend. I want to lose the 11lbs I put back on from when I was at my lowest weight, 17st. Only 9 to lose to get back there now. Then I want to get below it. I really want to get to 16st something, as for years I’ve never been able to get below 17. I am completely determined now.

A new beginning

Ok so I’ve been really crap these last few weeks. This is it this time, for real, starting over.

[I just thought, did I do a post called 'A new beginning' a few weeks ago? Gah]

Anyway, I weighed myself (a bit late this week) and I’ve stayed the same. I seem to be in some kind of grace period at the moment, but if I don’t get my act together, I’ll stop staying the same and I’ll put every last pound back on, and some more for luck. That’s what happened before.

Eating crap has made me feel so ill lately, it’s made my period nastier, my hormones go stupid, PMT worse and my stomach is completely fucked, IBS symptoms all the way. These go away almost totally when I stop eating crap.

This is all old news, I always knew this, but sometimes you have to remind yourself.

Here we go then.

Today I have had a cup of tea. Well, I’m still having it.

Oh 2

I weighed myself, I’m a pound more than last week. I’ve been hovering around the same place for a few weeks now, which is rather impressive as I’ve been stuffing my face.

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Later last evening I had two slices of toast, butter, two laughing cows.

This morning I have had four slices of toast, like the pig I am.
First two had flora, laughing cow and marmite on, and were horrible. I thought I was being good having flora but it makes toast taste like wet bread.
So I had another two with butter and laughing cow. They were really nice.

I put on 2lbs this week. Hardly surprising is it.

Update

I have decided to start doing this again in the new year.
The eating of the crappy food has already begun despite my original intentions. It’s fucking up my stomach already but that always happens. It will just mean when January comes I will be willing and ready to start afresh.

I put on another 3lbs this week which was annoying, but there you are. I have been hovering around the same half stone for months now, it’s really annoying and detracting from my original achievement. I really look forward to getting below 17st, then I will feel like I’ve really achieved something, at the moment I don’t feel like I have. I saw some relations who I hadn’t seen for a few years the other day, and they noticed that I’d lost weight. So that’s nice. But I won’t be satisfied for some time yet. I know I can do it, I achieved a lot this year, one way or another, and I can carry on doing so.

See you on the 1st January 2007.