Fish and chips, slice of bread. It was way too filling again, so I think my stomach is "shrinking" – this sounds like bullshit but it’s real, you stop having quite the capacity to eat large amounts after a while of portion reduction. I do feel like I should not have this meal, it’s not very "diety", but I think it’s fine once a week, as a treat. I am going to have less of everything next week though, and no bread. Bread is overdoing it a tad.
I had strawberries from the garden with a scoop of vanilla ice cream for afters.
I’ve got some new walking sandals which I can actually walk in, unlike flip-flop-esque types that you shuffle along in, and I did the stairs today at work. Eight flights, but I only went down them. I can do going up but it really hurts and I get all sweaty, and nobody wants to work with a fat sweaty person. I’ll be able to do it without that happening though soon, once I build up the fitness.
I intend to do more walking now I have appropriate footwear.
I have analysed my diary thus far and I think that two things are in order to assist my efforts.
One is to plan meals. If I make something while I am hungry I’m less likely to make a balanced meal. So I need to work out what I’m going to have in advance.
Secondly I need to count calories, only roughly but I think it might be an extra wake up call to stop me going over the top.
So that’s what I’m going to do.
I seem to eat an awful lot, the diary just looks like one long pig out. So I want to put it into context. At one time I would go into Sainsburys on the way home and buy a six pack of crisps, occasonally two six packs or a larger pack. Then I would buy several family sized packs of chocolate, the big 500g ones. Maltesers, M&Ms, stuff like that. Possibly also bars of chocolate, sweets, Haribo, jars of Nutella, cookies, pain au chocolate, cakes, biscuits, and large bottles of lucozade.
And I would be able to pretend I hadn’t eaten it all the next day as well. Total denial of how incredibly nasty these binges really were.
So even if I have a sandwich and a packet of wotsits later, which I probably will, it’s still nothing compared to what I used to be like. I used to eat all that and then still have the fucking sandwich.
This is quite a big deal for me, admitting to all this, since I’ve been in denial for years. I still eat too much, but like B said in my comments, can’t get rid of all nasty habits at once. I’m achieving weight loss, so I must be doing something right. I think I can make other changes which will help as well.
It’s all wonderfully positive!
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